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What if Joy is on the Other Side of Fear?

Unpacking the fear of joy, old beliefs, and the journey back to self-trust A few weeks ago, I was trying to use a new technique we’re learning at school: the DBT “chain analysis”, to understand a recurring pattern in my life: why I avoid looking for a job that I love and that pays well. The truth? I’ve always avoided it. I came to Vancouver to avoid job hunting in France. I started my first business to avoid facing that same fear. I’m probably studying so much now to keep postponing it. That avoidance comes from a deep, old belief planted by my parents: I’m not good enough. It’s a belief so many of us carry, and it shows up differently for everyone. Do you recognize it in yourself? I really want...

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Grieving the Time It Took Me to Heal

Did it really have to take that long? ⚠️ Suicidal ideation mention Last week, in class, we started learning about DBT - Dialectical Behavior Therapy. It’s a therapy model that includes mindfulness, emotional regulation, distress tolerance, and interpersonal effectiveness. I had never heard of it before - only CBT (Cognitive Behavioral Therapy). But a few weeks earlier, I had started hearing positive feedback about DBT, so I was curious and excited to learn more about a modality I had never explored. (Side note: I’m currently studying to become a counsellor, so I’ve been exploring a wide range of therapy models and learning what I wish I had known earlier.) Then, on Wednesday, something hit me. Two things, actually. First, DBT is a blend of CBT and emotional regulation. I had tried...

Eagle oracle card: See from a Higher Perspective

Am I Overanalyzing My Triggers?

My triggers show me where I’m vulnerable, but that doesn’t mean the other person is blameless Lately, I’ve been wondering: Have I gone too far with the idea that if I get triggered, it’s never about the other person? That it’s always something inside me that’s being touched, something I need to work on? I’ve heard that concept in a few different places: The Presence Process, shadow work, projection...

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The Struggle to Show the Ugly Part Is Real

Wanting to be seen whole, and not criticized for it Last week in class, we watched Finding Joe, the documentary on Joseph Campbell’s Hero’s Journey. I’d seen it before, probably several times, but this time it hit me differently. There’s this moment that says: “We grow the most with what stretches us the most. When you follow your bliss, the Universe will open doors where there were only walls” It resonated. I feel like sharing my writing is stretching me. But apparently… not enough to open doors. Yet ;) Lately, I’ve been wanting to write something that could come off as a bit critical. When I told my partner, he reminded me that exposing myself like that might attract haters. And he’s right. That thought terrifies me. It’s why I...

Nigella flowers

To All of You, My Friends, Who Are Presently Suffering

A letter from the other side of survival mode I wish I had a magic wand to heal you, or better yet, to show you your way out. I wish you could get out of this storm faster. I wish you’d find what you need, right now. I know how it feels. I’ve been there. Even if your story’s different, your symptoms, your wounds… suffering feels the same. That heavy, hopeless, unbearable place where nothing seems to help. I tried for over 20 years to get better. And for all of that time, it felt like nothingworked. But in 2023, something shifted. I can’t explain it in a clean, spiritual, inspiring way. The world didn’t change. Life didn’t get easier. But it became easier to manage. That constant survival mode...

Mirror, shadow work

When Someone Talks Too Much… and It Gets Under My Skin

How a small trigger turned into an insight about me Let’s talk about a trigger that came up last week, a small one, but persistent. I just started a new class in my counselling diploma. It’s semester four out of six, and this one is about Spiritual Wellness. The previous classes focused on Somatic Wellness and Emotional Wellness, which I loved. This time, I had high hopes. I thought we’d dive into deep meditations and maybe even feel some magic, a sense of Nirvana, or connection to the Universe. Instead, I got a new teacher… and some internal resistance. Right away, I felt annoyed. I didn’t like his teaching style. I didn’t like how he kept repeating his stories. I didn’t feel listened to. He talked, a lot. And...

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Struggling to See My Own Strengths: A Journey of Self-Acceptance

A Reflection on Shadow Work, Body Image, and Finding My True Self So far, I’ve been talking about my fears of showing myself, standing up, and standing out. But on the other side of this, is the challenge of embracing who I am, with my values, strengths, qualities, and even what I might call my weaknesses (as I’m learning about shadow work). And that’s been difficult too. Last week, I dug deeper into shadow work, especially for women. I started watching a workshop called The Shadow Side of the Feminine by Maanee Chrystal, and I was surprised by what I learned. I knew but couldn’t connect to what women have been going through, and still are. This adds another layer of trauma to an already long list....

Reflect and integrate

The Toll of the News on Our Mental Health [part 6/6]

Reflect and integrate As we wrap up this series of 6 articles, it’s time to reflect on the journey we’ve taken together. We’ve explored various strategies to manage our news consumption and enhance our mental well-being. How have you felt about the changes we’ve discussed so far? Remember, this process is about progress, not perfection. Here is the first article if you missed the series. Here are some reflective questions: What have you learned about your news consumption habits? Which of the practices introduced felt most impactful? Have you noticed any changes in how you feel daily since beginning these new practices? Here are some more tips to integrate those new habits in the long term (did you guess I love tips and lists?!): Habit Stacking: Inspired by...

Digital Detox: put the phone away

The Toll of the News on Our Mental Health [part 4/6]

Reduce the amount of news that doesn’t serve you “News is to the mind what sugar is to the body.” - Rolf Dobelli In a recent podcast, I was reminded of a striking fact: our brains are wired for negativity bias, meaning we tend to favor negative information. This inherent predisposition means that negative news often has a more profound impact than positive news. Therefore, removing negative influences can often be more beneficial than merely adding positive ones! Also, in our daily lives, much like in the poignant Zen story of the Angry Young Man and the Buddha, we encounter the “gift” of news—often negative. The tale involves a Zen master who refuses to accept a gift of anger from a young man, illustrating a profound lesson: just...

ChatGPT tells me to breathe

ChatGPT’s Mindful Surprise!

Yesterday, I tried to get some help from ChatGPT, but it wasn’t working. The page wouldn’t load or react at all. I was using Safari, so I decided to switch to Chrome to see if I’d have better luck. And then ChatGPT greeted me with this message: "ChatGPT is at capacity right now As you read this message, please take a moment to pause and breathe. Notice the sensations in your body and the rythm of your breath...